Milo, we're so sorry. We know exactly how you feel, having lost Ollie just 8 weeks ago. It's terrible to lose a feathered friend, especially when you lose them suddenly. What a horrible shock to go through. It's incomprehensible, really.
Please don't feel guilty or bad, or like you did anything wrong. You didn't! Accidents happen. It's awful and terrible, and they can't be avoided. I know it's natural to wonder "what if" and to feel that you should have done better. You couldn't. Time and chance are a b****, frankly, and we're sorry they converged on you like this. It's not fair. It's not right. And there's not a thing you could have done to prevent it.
Our parronts still feel like fools for not knowing that Ollie had a tumor. All that time, they thought it was a nerve injury, and they were looking in the wrong place. For 5 months. They found out in the end. And they felt awful for it. Still do, in fact. Mommy says she feels like such a fool that maybe she should wear a jester hat and juggle pins, like the king's fools in medieval times.
You're very good to your flock, and they need you now too. Jinx, Tuscon, Sassy, and the 'keets probably don't quite get what happened, and are anxious about Dot being gone. They'll probably get clingy. We did. Chloe made mommy late for work more than once, screaming until she'd walk her around the house to let me check every room. She said Chloe was looking to make sure the reaper that took Ollie was gone. We still miss him.
We know it feels bad, and that loss to your flock is overwhelming. We know there's really nothing we can say to make you feel better today. This is, in fact, probably the worst pep talk in the world. But we want you to know that we do understand your loss. You aren't in this desert alone. We're there with you - and all your Twitter pals too. Let us be your strength. Our Twitter pals were a great help to us when we lost Ollie, and you especially! So let us be there for you now, as you were for us.
Take care, friend, and stay online. We're here.
Zack and Chloe